To me, the issue of being a creative individual must have something to do with sensing a void inside your soul. Specifically for me i is about allowing me to sense it. But, I tend to use a series of strategies to assure I avoid staying near to this void.
One strategy is to assure I always have things to do. Ways to get there is to pick up what I had done before or followed what others do. I assume diffuse emotions show up in me when I am near to such a void. My impulse is to void the feelings and I use whatever I can to escape. What I use is not essential as long as it has the effect of silencing those feelings. The aim and consequences of my actions have no other meaning.
People have described me as creative, but I doubt their judgments. They seem to base their decisions on the number of ideas I produce. Or thoughts, associations, and reflections. The ideas do give me some limited joy, but they do not add up. I feel staying at a standstill. And that is the core of my present problem in writing.
This way, an new idea arises. How about exposing myself and my flow of ideas to some rules and regulations? To make my ideas and thoughts operating I will need to learn to work against a distinct frame. A first step will be to set up that frame and train me in respecting it.
Otherwise, the outcome of my flow of ideas will strangle me by distraction. Eventually, my creativity will dry up.
Göran
Göran Stille 
Hi Goran. your conundrum is familiar though not exactly the same. My head is full of idea’s, pictures, and feelings. The problem now is in the execution. (initially it was in the discipline of getting them down) What is helping me are the rules of storytelling. Check out, Shawn Coyne and Steve Alcorn, two online teachers that I am finding helpful. Good luck, Dr. Bob
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“People have described me as creative, but I doubt their judgments.” Why do you doubt them? (Or hold stock in them for that matter, if you do?) We are all born creative beings. I notice that boys in particular, however, are often pegged as being destructive from early childhood. Perhaps you were not allowed to “feel” creative… and yet from your poetry, and some of your prose vignettes, I see you as wildly creative when you let yourself be.
My dad was criticized by a choir teacher and asked to “just mouth the words” instead of singing when he was a child. He repeats this story over and over again. And yet he has a beautiful voice and can sing very well. (A little loudly, but very well, and perfectly on key.) He does not see this talent in himself. I think that is interesting. My husband is similar. He believed he was “not musical.” And yet, he picks up and “mucks around” with the random instruments in our house (recorder, piano, guitar) more than I do, though I was raised believing I was “musical.” I love his music; it is always experimental, spontaneous and unpretentious. He never expects it to turn out well so he is free with it. Perhaps we are all are blind to our own creative powers in some ways.
That said, I hear you completely, about the distraction problem. That is my number one problem. I woke up thinking about it this morning (but due to distraction, did not write about it in my journal as I had intended, but instead created some blither-blather about narcissism) and perhaps, though I did not know about your post, I received it in my sleep. :))) Because I woke up believing I absolutely must impose rules and regulations on my creative time. Otherwise I am continuously wasting it. Your post seems to be a wakeful sign confirming my belief. ;)))
Hugs and thanks for sharing Göran
xoxo nadine
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