Joyful presence fills your interior to the brink. The urge to dress your feeling of joy in words would make it leak, vanish, and disappear. Still, you do it.
The critical moment is to stay in silence. To allow the joy to be yours. At least for a day or two. To make it real enough. Not needing to qualify it by communicating with someone else.
Through your whole life, you walked along the roads you knew well. You dressed in an extra coat of responsibility. You almost touched a sense of acting dumb. You never even dared to imagine what the second level of living would be for you.
Göran Stille
Göran Stille 
I agree Göran.
I once spent a week with three of our kids at a Zen Bhuddist mindfulness retreat. There, the nuns and monks tried to teach us the very concept you outline in your first two paragraphs. I did know such joy thanks to their teachings.
However, I am also, now, thankful that I did put some of that experience into words, in my journal. Whenever I forget to “stay in silence,” I can be reminded (by my own written words) of a time when I was able to do it with ease. And my sense of “presence” is renewed.
Thanks for the reminder. I think any of us who writes can use it.
Hugs, your FIW nadine
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Thank you, Nadine. Your comment means a lot to me. You opened the connection to Buddhist mindfulness for me. After reading your comment I realized that it exists.
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Oh Göran, thanks so much for this wonderful reply. Means a lot to me.
I wonder if you would like to read this post of mine. It touches on some Buddhist concepts and also on my continuous issues with the spelling of “Bhuddist” (hehe). I would love your feedback on it if the mood strikes you.
https://bloomwords.com/2018/10/20/25-things/
Thanks for connecting again (by email to Magda and I, your former “Next Steppers”) with this piece, which resonates deeply. I hope Magda will join in the conversation again as well.
We dare to post our innermost thoughts and feelings online, and then even invite feedback on them, as I feel you did in the act of emailing us, and as I do by posting my link, above. Although those acts seem to be in direct opposition with the ideas in your first two paragraphs, I like to think it’s a way of actively entering into “peaceful combat” with societal conditioning, touched upon in your third paragraph.
This kind of balance, juxtaposition and acceptance of “what is” seems to be the core of Buddhist philosophy, if I’ve understood it right.
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